Fall

So I can definitely admit to not being the best blogger out there--heck I'm not the best anything out there, really! I'm just me, working along and living and doing what I can. That's all I can do, I think.

At any rate, here's the catch-up. If you want to skip the rant and get to the musings, feel free. The rant gets a little cynical and pathetic, but I don't have the time to waist creating non-offensive prose.

My summer receptionist job finally ended (boo-hoo). I'm so relieved it's over. My boss was becoming a total asshole, and the work was so boring and slow. What's kind of funny is that even though they chose Carmen to stay through the winter over me, Carmen's quitting now. I think the thought of staying in those quiet offices alone all winter trying to desperately get someone in the building for an interview scared her. It might have scared me too.

On too the good info, though, MY NEW JOB! I was very fortunate that (on an appointment with one of my mom's old friends who owns a school) I was offered a job as a Montessori Preschool English Teacher! I don't think a while ago that would have been my dream job, but she was insanely nice about it. She's paying me WAY more than I deserve (considering I have no qualifications) and as I was making minimum wage before, it was an offer I couldn't refuse. As soon as my fingerprints clear, I'll be able to start work, and I am very excited. I was really lucky to get that job.

As for the other fronts in life, there's nothing much going on. Cleaning up this pig-sty I call a home, slowly but surely. There's just so little space for everything!

I also deleted my Facebook. There were a lot of reasons involving that, I think. Mostly I just didn't want that to be me anymore. I am going to go ahead and say that there are very few people that I like that are my friends there. Everyone else just went to WRA with me. When I get on again I think I will just delete them as my friends, but for now I will just be satisfied that I don't have to look at their faces and hear their stupid problems and how much they supposedly miss me when they probably just saw me comment on something somewhere.

I don't want to be a total bitch, but let's be real here. If it came down to it and I actually needed something, not one of those girls would come to my aid. I know this because not one girl I went to West Ridge with has ever followed through with anything. Except for Lexi B. finding a place for Teran to stay that one spring break. Whenever we remember all the bullshit she pulled, we remember that and smile. That's the Lexi I remember when I think it would be fun to have a friend. I try to forget the lies.

At any rate ON TO THE MUSINGS!

I thought of the BEST idea today. You know how when you look up images (anywhere: google, photobucket, etc) of teenage love, all these adorable couples pop up? Girls with pale skin and long black/brown/blonde hair with a boy who has a Beiber-cut and maybe a 6pack or a hoodie on? And they are in a meadow, and there's a sunset, and it reminds you of that magical time that made your heart ache (or I still feel that way about Teran, maybe that's the magic of love: it reminds you of being a teenager).

At any rate, my thought was this: Why are there never adorable black couples on broken fences, climbing trees, and holding hands in the forest? Where's our representation? Where are all the Hispanic couples? I mean, white girls and Asians are cute--I get it! Just like women are always into a black man, men are often swayed by a little Asian throwing up peace signs or a petite blonde. That's fine.

I'm just saying: It would be good if there were more cute Photoshopped portraits of young black love. I see it every day and it's beautiful! Even black couples who are older than us are underrepresented, but I don't know. I think that would be a fun photo shoot, but alas I know of no photographer that could go out and take an autumn shot for a few hours sometime, maybe up at Edgewood. It's a 10 minute hike for a gorgeous location. 

It's just lame that if you type "young love" emo's pop up and if you type in "young black love" Lil Bow Bow and his latest love interest pop up. Unbelievable.

Also, this is because I want pics of Teran and I while we're young--we've got it now, why not remember it? Our kids will want to see it, I'm sure. Or at least I'll want to show them ;)

I will probably be blogging more often with the lack of Facebook. Facebook isn't going back on again anytime soon. Oh well.

XOXOlizz

"The secret of happiness is freedom. The secret of freedom is courage."--Thucydides

P.S. I just started hearting things on weheartit.com. SUCH a cute site, and I would have invited people to it if I still had a Facebook!

P.P.S. Here's some cute ones... I even found a black couple! Don't like her hair, but it's love! :)